I’m loving my natural body. I love being curvy. I feel healthy and strong. I’ve never felt so confident before.
Ever since I was young I have been body conscious. My body developed at a very young age, and I got lots of attention that I really couldn’t handle. I’ve never had a small figure, I’m thick, and although I have tried, no diet or crazy exercise regimen can permanently change that. For so long I went through phases, loving my body, hating it, covering it up, over-exposing it; it was just too much! For so long I felt like I had to have this “perfect” body, the ones that rappers talk about, and singers love to brag about. My LoveJourney has brought me to physical peace. I was able to stop comparing my body to others. I stopped obsessing over other singers, their look and body image. I don’t spend too much time tugging at my clothes and having awkward body language, I’m just comfortable in my skin! I’m still getting comfortable with my body, but I’m a long way from where I was.
Your body is beautiful. It is perfect the way it is. The only beauty standard is the one you give to yourself. Your body is your temple & no matter it’s shape or size, you must love and cherish it. Be comfortable in your skin.
When I first started out as a vocalist/performer, my voice would shake. I would sweat, my knees would get weak. I feared the audience. I was so afraid they wouldn’t like my voice or that I would mess up. I turned down so many opportunities because of those fears. My LoveJourney was, and still is, a time for me to conquer all fears; those on stage and off. I found myself at open mics, auditions, random recording studios, anything to just get myself out there. It wasnt easy. It was like going to Six Flags with the fear of roller coasters. But I did it, and now I crave performing. I can’t get enough of it, it’s all I think about. I still get nervous here and there but I think of it as excitement.
Living fear-less is the only way. Identify what’s holding you back & overcome it. It won’t be easy, but once you get there, there’s no turning back.
I find myself freestyling to drummers performing on paint buckets.
I catch myself writing & daydreaming of poetry in cool Bushwick cafes.
I found myself partying with cool kids on roof-tops.
I had myself laughing out loud, pure joy and excitement.
I sometimes meet up with cool cats and listen to Jazz @ Fat Cat.
I slither into Smalls, ready for musical epiphanies.
I stare into the Hudson thinking, “Damn, I’m lucky, huh?”
Where am I? Where else would I be?!
I have to give a shout-out to NYC.
It’s a place where you can be born, re-born, live your dreams, be who you want & never apologize for any of it. I became infatuated with NYC at a young age. My dream was to live in the glamorous NYC; rich, famous and in love. Today, that dream is closer than ever. As soon as a step off the train into the Village, or Union Square, or Times Square, there’s an instant feeling of cool. My LoveJourney guided me to NYC and introduced me to the best of the best musicians, creatives and tastemakers. If I ever lack inspiration or insight I find myself walking through the Big Apple. It’s my home. Every time I sing in New York I get so much love! There’s a huge support community out there, and great opportunities for young hopefuls.
So thanks NYC. For tons of inspiration, real-life lessons and all the love.